The new normal

Was it agreed
When I was out the room
All would play
This pretend game?

And when I look at you
You keep your face straight
By the rules.

I try to fit in,
Unsure but trying,
Playing along
With the rest.

But if I figure it out?
Will you all stop
And laugh,
Drop the act?

Will we grin
Made comrades
By the game?

Until then,
I try to keep up
Worried I'll lose
And be eliminated.